-Today, being Monday, was going to be long. Although, I knew that from the moment I woke up.
-School was a drag as always: we learned something new in Calc which right over my head, the usual. Environmental Science made me want to rip my hair out, but what else is new? For an interesting change of pace, we had a sub in English today and after finishing our assignment, my friend Dom and I jammed out to some gypsy music.
-Tomorrow, the lowerclassmen are taking a practice ACT and it is a day for all seniors to go out and shadow a potential career they are interested in. This means I get to sleep in! But, I also have a day full of work planned, including working on the blog and some other projects I have.
-During my mentoring hour today, Dom and I got to work on a writing project we have that will hopefully take off! It’s a sort of litmag geared towards anyone wanting to promote their work.
-There was history club today after school and we discussed The Lost Colony of Roanoke. I never could wrap my head around the fact that an entire community just vanished overnight, their belongings undisturbed. Somehow, deep in my gut, I know it has something to do with aliens. I can just feel it.
-Someone might be buying my laptop so I can upgrade to a new one for college! Too pumped!
-After school, I hung out with a friend and I helped him on his English paper and then as a reward for my help, I dragged him to go see Mortal Instruments with me. Who’d have thunk he would have liked it! I loaned him the books after he said that he wanted to start reading them immediately:)
-Tomorrow, I have a coffee date with my best friend and we are going to lay out our plan and begin drafting out first book together. I could not imagine writing a book with anyone else besides this girl and I can’t wait to get started because I absolutely love our idea!:)
Several things have happened over the past two days, nothing serious, just some personal things, which have led me to reevaluate how I handle some situations. I want immediate satisfaction, and am disappointed when I don’t receive it. I set my hopes and standards to high, and feel bad when I or someone else can’t attain those standards. I act brashly. I create these plans and ideas in my head and I put too much stock into them, as if they are set in stone and since I’ve imagined them, they must come true. These past two days have made me realize how incredibly wrong I have been.
But then again, that’s what this entire blog is about. Heck, that’s what this entire experience, this entire year is about. Today, I went out after school, not worrying about school or work or anything, and hung out with a friend I hadn’t seen in forever for 6 straight hours. And I felt great. Sure, I still have work to do, but it’s not the end of the world. I need to find balance. And once I find it, I need to figure out how to maintain it.
I have a vivid imagination and wild fantasies about how my life is going to pan out. But I need to face reality and come to terms with the fact that if I want my life a certain way, it’s not going to be handed to me on a silver platter. I need to work for it. That’s why I want to devote even more of myself to this blog. So much potential lies in this blog that I am failing to utilize and that is only hurting me. I want my blog to be more functional and more accessible. I want to cover more topics, from food to photography to fashion to writing to current events to whatever! I want this to be a place where readers will want to spend time and feel comfortable communicating with me. I want this to be more than a project.
I’m working on it.
I promise.
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